boy, maybe this is just a necessary procedure before you can get matured, and what my suggest is, you better find sth. that you are interested, and concentrate, this can bring the passion, inspiration back, as friend, cause you are not a little boy, i heared from my friends, if there is sb. who can go with you in this time, you are lucky, if not, this is it, this is the fact, this is not suffering, this is growing, just let it be, another thing you have to consider is, to do sth. is better than what you are doing no, you just put mercy on yourself, forget , forget, and do sth. you can, anything you want, come on ,man , u can make it.