败了````彻底的败了`````一点反败为胜的机会都没有``````没想到的是让自己失败的人是我最心疼的人````曾经以为自己能照顾好身边的人````````曾经以为自己了解身边的任何女人`````````````曾经以为自己能给身边的人带来安全感``````````然而```````这次败的一败涂地````````没想到让我失败的人不是我最爱的人`````````不是我最想的人```````不是和我关系最好的人```````也不是最想在我身边的人``````而是她```````自己7个月的努力````````白吃了2个月的苦````````连人家的一句我爱你的分量都没有```````可笑````````还是那么傻``````总以为自己能改变一切````````傻````````又一次为女人哭了`````又一次为女人伤害了自己`````````可笑``````````好累````````过的好累````````活的好累````````好想休息```````好想````````已经快坚持不下去了```````心好疼```````手也好疼`````````为什么```````也许死了就什么都不痛了吧```````呵呵`````````